0.0 – Christian Science Publication Contents Mary Baker Eddy Healings Category: Book Beg Pg#: 667 Series: 1875 & 1910 Textbooks Beg Line#: 0 Book: Science & Health with Key to the Scriptures ~ 1910 Final Ed. End Pg#: 667 Section: Key to Scriptures End Line#: 0 Chapter: Fruitage Total Pgs: 1 Article #: 327 View/Download: available later Article Title: egotism healed Year: 1970 Topics: Tags: Description: Text Content: BORN AGAIN It was in April, 1904, that I first heard the "still, 21 small voice" of the Christ and received healing through Christian Science; and the blessings have been so many since, that it would take too much space to 24 name them. Reared from childhood in an intellectual atmosphere, my paternal grandfather having been an orthodox minister of the old school for forty years, 27 and my father a deep student, ever seeking for the truth of all things, I began early to ponder and to study into the meaning of life, and came to the con- 30 clusion before I was twenty that though God probably 1 existed in some remote place, still it was impossible to connect Him with my present living. My highest 3 creed, therefore, became, "Do right because it is right and not for fear of being punished." Then began the suffering. Sorrow after sorrow followed each other 6 in rapid succession; for ten long years there was no rest, the road was indeed long and hard and had no turning, until finally the one thing that had stood by 9 me all through the trials, namely, my health, gave way, and with that went my last hope. But the last hour of the night had come, the dawn of day was at 12 hand; a dear friend left Science and Health upon my piano one day, saying that I would gain much good by reading it. 15 Glad to get away from my own poor thoughts, I opened the "little bo...ok" and began to read. I had read only a short time when such a wonderful trans- 18 formation took place! I was renewed; born again. Mere words cannot tell the story of the mighty up- lifting that carried me to the very gates of heaven. 21 When I began to read the book, life was a burden, but before I had finished reading it the first time, I was doing all my housework and doing it easily; and since that 24 glorious day I have been a well woman. My health is splendid, and I am striving to let my light so shine that others may be led to the truth. There have been 27 some mighty struggles with error, and I have learned that we cannot reach heaven with one long stride or easily drift inside the gate, but that the "asking" and 30 the "seeking" and the "knocking" must be earnest and persistent. For a long time I was always looking back to see if 1 the error had gone, until one day when I realized that to catch a glimpse of what spiritual sense means 3 I must put corporeal sense behind me. I then set to work in earnest to find the true way. I opened Science and Health and these words were before me, 6 "If God were understood, instead of being merely be- lieved, this understanding would establish health" (p. 203). I saw that I must get the right understanding of God! 9 I closed the book and with head bowed in prayer I waited with longing intensity for some answer. How long I waited I do not know, but suddenly, like a won- 12 derful burst of sunlight after a storm, came clearly this thought, "Be still, and know that I am God." I held my breath — deep into my hungering thought 15 sank the infinite meaning of that "I." All self- conceit, egotism, selfishness, everything that constitutes the mortal "I," sank abashed out of sight. I trod, as 18 it were, on holy ground. Words are inadequate to con- vey the fulness of that spiritual uplifting, but others who have had similar experiences will understand. 21 From that hour I have had an intelligent consciousness of the ever-presence of an infinite God who is only good. — C. B. G., Hudson, Mass. Read more